I’m not quite sure exactly what it is, but I’m gettin it back! Deployment can be rough on the stuff that makes you, you. It’s hard to keep the routine we had before the man of the house left. Hard to keep up with the things that I used to have time to do before the new world of ‘single’ motherhood took over. Mojo. I’m takin it by the horns!
History. We learn from it, we mourn it, we rejoice in it.
Last night, it was announced that Osama Bin Laden was killed by Americans. This is what we have wanted for almost 10 years. This is what we have fought for, died for for just as long. So, why does my heart feel so heavy? I wonder if it’s because my husband is in the midst of it all, or if it is just the unknown and confusion of what this means and what it may bring. Already worried about retaliation, this can’t be the end. I never thought I would have any personal weight in this war. I never thought 10 years ago sitting in my seventh grade classroom, that I would someday endure a huge sacrifice for this ‘war on terrorism’. Now, while everyone around the world seems to be rejoicing, I can’t help but be terror-stricken myself. What will happen to my husband? I don’t feel very patriotic, and I don’t feel cut out for the military life. I don’t want to sacrifice my family or my husband for this cause. Whether that makes me good,bad, selfish, I don’t know.
Yesterday was such an awesome day, we had beautiful weather, a good run, positive attitudes all around.
Today…was a different tale…and here’s the proof.
My coffee mug says it all…”BLAH”.
So, for D’s birthday coming up soon, as in the end of this month, I have been working on a little magic to help him celebrate. The first being…this blog. He’s always been the one telling me to start one. So I will be promptly presenting this to him most likely in email form so that he can click on the link and enjoy all the goodness that should ensue. The other thing I did today was bake him a “cake in a jar” to send, along with some frosting and a whoopie cushion. Yes, I’m sending him a whoopie cushion for his birthday. I don’t know, it sounded good. To be honest, he wants an iPad 2. Buuuut, Dave Ramsey suggests otherwise. If you know what I mean. So, I settled on some goodies and a cake in a jar. Oh and a rockin’ birthday card. I always make my own, and they’re always interesting to say the least but it’s made full of love. You know when your in the cool kids club when you get one of those! So here’s a little sneak peak at some magic in the making:
That was my attempt at a ‘man’ card! Ha!
I figured a box cake would be best since it already has a million preservatives that if I messed up the seal on the jar, it will still be preserved until it reaches destination??? Let’s hope! I can’t wait to dress those bad boys up and send ‘em off! D will love it! I’m obviously including frosting, a fork, and candles!
Note: If it’s not obvious enough…my only camera right now is my iPhone. Our Nikon’s bit the dust. Dave won’t let me buy a new one. I did buy an app for a ‘better’ camera on the iPhone, but I’m afraid I wasted ninety-nine cents.
So, we were practicing for the Easter dash. Gotta get ‘em started young!
Okay, not really. J just likes to put his chalk in his bucket and carry it around with him everywhere.
Today was beautiful! Full of fun in the sun…kind of. The sun sort of blipped in and out all day, but it was welcomed with open arms and smiles around here. We’ve been cooped up far too long! Today I thought a lot about how blessed I really am. I tend to complain, kind of a lot. Never really out loud, (although, I’m sure D could argue that!) but inside I say things to myself like, “wouldn’t you know it?!” or “figures!” every time something frustrating happens. Like the other morning when I spilled my morning cereal all over the carpet, or a couple weeks ago when Logan decided to throw up randomly on the living room floor, or like today, when I forgot to use my coupons at the grocery store, and realized as I was walking OUT of the store. No way was I going back in there! In all reality, I am so beyond blessed to have a husband who loves me and lets me stay home with my other blessing, Jude, a beautiful home, a yard to play in, a garden to grow, friends who care, family who care even more, money to buy groceries with every month, a brand new car, and more than I probably ever deserve! I really needed to step back today and realize, it could be so much worse! The whole budget fiasco/government shut-down in combination with Obama being a not-so-hot President, and worrying about the future has really gotten me into a huge fit the last couple of weeks. I realized today how much that was taking away from the beauty of life and truly enjoying the here and now. I need to stop worrying and complaining and plain being mad at everything out there that I can’t control because they are not going to be things I want to remember ten years from now. I want to remember the fun Jude and I had outside today. I want to remember our first-ever veggie garden that we are starting. I want to remember the book I read on the porch this morning. And I want to remember the middle of the night phone call I get from my husband, while he is away. So, here’s to a much more positive outlook than I’ve had the past few weeks! :)
D called at about 1:30 in the morning, and although I was groggy and weirdly giggling the whole time, it was great! :D Love you babe!
We have gotten through our first week of deployment. A lonely but a smooth ride this week. Well, except for today, when I discovered the propane tank is completely empty. That’s going to be a problem. But other than that, it’s been smooth sailing and I’d like to keep it that way, thanks.
Got to talk to D for the first time tonight since he left last Tuesday! Made my week!
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I'm Jude's mom and I'm just here to talk about my family, our adventures and my little man. And everything in between here and there.
